`& IMissYoh♥ `& Smiles♥

|12 April 2010

我心里好辛苦啊...
FML.

Still missing u.... ♥....
3:10:00 pm

|06 April 2010

Mistaken ): haix
heart broken.....
I can feel he is abit emotional now too...
:/
blasting songs now....

Still missing u.... ♥....
11:32:00 pm

|04 April 2010

I wished she disappeared....
But it's never going to happen......

Still missing u.... ♥....
11:40:00 pm

|03 April 2010

If u could let me choose to be emo or happy...
Do u think I would choose to be emo?...
I'm emoing about u boy...
But th return I get is...
):
haix.
I'm sorry.
From th moment u wake up ltr on...
Ull nv see me emo again.
I'll hide if I emo.
Ull nv find me when I emo.
Becuz....
All I wan is u..
But it seems like..
It's so hard right now.
It really is..
Becuz ur not gunna contact me if I emo.
And I emo about u. :/
see what I mean?..
Yea..
It's hard.
Haix.
Wish all this were not nessacery.
...
From this sentence on I'll nv put more than 1 full stop,
behind a word.
God bless.

Still missing u.... ♥....
2:08:00 am

|02 April 2010

I'm sorry my dear boy.....
For being emo...
):
I know it's not ur fault...
But I can't force myself to make ppl think nth happened....
I'm sorry if I make u angry...
Idk why u sayd....
Dun take it like ur fault.....
I really didn't put th blame at u at all....
I really didn't......
T-T
haix....

Still missing u.... ♥....
7:13:00 pm

Why me?
Why?.....
It breaks my heart u know....
Knowing everything..
Major headache....
):
I'm thinking again....
Suddenly everyone chanced....
Or Is it just me?....
I really breaking down le....
Crying.....
When can I stop?....
When will that be?....
Am I going to eat my med tonight?....
Probably no.....
Haix.....
My fault again.....
He angry again.....
Becuz I'm effing emo :/...
Haix....
Why am I so idiot?.....
Why must I emo?......
Why?......
Can I stop please?....
Take it I beg myself :/....
I wan to stop emoing.....
Thinking about everything....
How I waited at sk today.....
Why did I go?....
I missed u....
Wanted to see u.....
But now I screw everything up again.....
Now ur angry at me.....
Idiot me.....
Why.....
Must I make u so angry.....
Why must I always create trouble....
To make u angry then I emo......
Then ull leave me once again.....
U promised u won't....
): .....
Why am I always creating trouble?....
It's becuz I'm so jealous.....
So sad.....
So lonely......
So angry......
So annoyed......
:/ i'm trying to understand u.....
Give in to u....
Cheer u up when u sad....
And so many things more.....
:/.....
I waited for u for like almost 5 months....
5months.....
Just for u....
I have nv loved anyone so much u know?...
Even when I found out about that in chalet.....
I still waiting.....
U won't wan that to happen to u right?.....
U can't take it too de right?....
But why I still dun mind?......
Im trying to tahan that pain u know?.....
): ....
So many more pain I'm trying to hold on to.....
I can't let em go u know?... ):
it's so hard u know?.....
I can't take it anymore.... Th pain....
):
haix....
Hope it all changes one day....
No more hurts.....
Really beg u god....
To make it come true....
Just wan to spend my time...
With him...
):

Still missing u.... ♥....
6:53:00 pm

Kb ok.
I dun jio ppl out le ok.
I wait long long for ppl jio me out.
Stay at home rot ok?
Zzzz
fuck.....
Wan go shopping also no one pei...
Jio ppl out all Mai go.
Got ppl go than they pangseh me.
Kb -.-
zzzz....
So dulan now....

Still missing u.... ♥....
11:20:00 am